sup3rn0va n3xt t0 th3 d00r

And it's become much worse this time. I'm slowly writing up something though. Aaah. Nanowrimo's near, altho this fanfic is a cheat because I didn't even start writing it on November.

whatever hahaha. i need more lumpia.

Scanned through some of the comms I'm in and applied to new comms and realized that I haven't been really updated with stuff even though I'm always online on facebook.

I've recently started a new job and hopefully I could get my shit together in the next few months so I could organize my fandom stuff and go back to making shitty youtube videos.

I don't know if I should say this but I'm cooking something up and I'm quite excited to finish it before I even post the first chapter. Hopefully saying that doesn't jinx it! Lol

I wrote a semi-formal review about Ooku for a job application and hopefully I'd be able to add more stuff to it and post it soon.

That's all from me for now!

I know im pretty new to the fandom, and i dont really know Sho, didn't watch him "journey" to where he currently is now, and haven't watched a lot of his shows.. But i just wanna say that im really thankful bae introduced him (and arashi ofc) to me because well, another clutch in my life, another reason for staying alive. I dont really know why exactly I "chose" this guy, because he's a fail and he's smug af and doesn't even know how to cook (actually those might as well be the reason why I love him).

And because im out of words to say to this man, i will copy paste what i wrote on fb here and add a little more (italized are added sentences / also warning this is cheesy and weeb af) :

Because it's Shochan's birthday, i made this a few days ago. I know it doesn't really look like him.. And i kinda wanted to give up half way but i really wanted to draw this dork.. Or at least do this teeny tiny thing for him, no matter how insignificant it is, to thank him, i guess, for joining JE and for staying and not quitting and putting up with the idol life though i feel like he may (or may not) have had other plans for himself in the past. So happy birthday, Shochan! You might not know i exist but you bring a little bit of color to my every day and tbh you make my life a little bit worth living haha gago ka i hate you but i love you more, bwisit. I sincerely wish all the happiness to you and that you won't get tired of what you love doing and that you have excellent health and maybe a month off because you deserve that. you inspire a lot of people and have touched so many hearts, i dont care what people say, i genuinely believe that you are a good (whatever 'good'means) person and i want to believe that forever and put you on this pedestal forever so please please shochan don't ever change. Hnnnn take care of yourself okay and dont eat too much and always drive safely and this is getting cheesy and im about to cry now bye


THANK YOU SAKURAI-MAMA AND SAKURAI-PAPA FOR ALWAYS GIVING BIRTH TO SHOCHAN.AND TO SAKURAI MAI-SAN AND SHU-KUN TOO.

THANK YOU OHCHAN FOR PUTTING SHOCHAN IN HIS PLACE HAHAHAH

THANK YOU NEEN, J, AND AIBACHII FOR TAKING CARE OF SHOCHAN

gago i love all of you

So last month my friend and I went to Manila to process my Visa (which i have now and yay ill be off to japan very soon! <3) and we went to Red Monster Cafe @ Quezon City! We were staying in Pasay and we needed to sit in traffic for like 3 hours just to get to the cafe but everything was worth it because the cafe owners were super nice and they had great food!

I'm super poor but i managed to buy these

a shop photo of my fave dorks, Riida, Aibachii and ofc keio boy (I wanted to get the face down shop photo with the keio boy all up in Neener's face but i prioritized my stomach ahahah), the Potato anniv issue from 2013 (which i keep joking about saying that it was a brochure of pretty boys) and the not-lewd sho An-an with his hands.





the shop owners were super nice they played us and Arashi concert (which we were actually quite unfamiliar with but my friend and i concluded that it could be from AAA but not in tokyo dome)



and had us sit in the Arashi themed table! they also have an Arashi themed drink (peppermint mocha yaaas) which was called FOR DREAM and man i loved their pesto pasta.

I wanted to buy more shit but i was poor af hahahah



and im very late but HAPPY BIRTHDAY SATOCHEEKS-RIIDA!! i made and drew this for you but im not very good ehehe





that was a life update from Jou! out~!

hello ive been gone for some time because things are getting really busy and it's emotionally and mentally stressing me out hahaha

i keep telling myself that ill update on my fanfic but im not doing anything ahahah
i will be posting something in a few though lol

i havent even finished watching sekaiimuzu and platina data yet, and ive broken my one variety episode a day vow to myself

not sure if this is depression or pure laziness or i just dont know how to manage my time hahaha why arent i in AKB48 i swear i would be such a good idol because im a fame whore but just the right amount??? HAHAH

that was it lol i suck

Aaah a bit of a hold on fanfics because i am dead inside and it's been hard to find inspiration since.. Hahaha.. Reasons. But! I'll get one out pretty soon.;)

Okay to start off, this is more of a personal entry although a bit Arashi and fandom related in a way.

My friend and I were talking about Nadine Lustre "snubbing" a fan on the street the other day and people were saying that they were idolizing the wrong person daw and that Nadine was a snob and this and that... only to find out that the fan actually approached Nadine while there were filming and she needed to discreetly tell the fan na mamaya nalang (can we do it later) because she was in the middle of filming. And the person who said this was the fan him/herself. Kek.

My friend and I were like.. isn't it just like when you're in the middle of a call and someone comes up to you asking you about something? Or if you're eating and your mom suddenly decides that it's the best time for her to ask you do get her something from the bathroom.

I'm not a fan of Nadine or anything, and I sure as hell am not defending her (actually I kinda am hahaha) but I kinda get the feel of her being stingy (or maybe she wasn't) when someone disturbs her on the job.

Then what my sister told me yesterday also came to mind. She lives in Japan rn and one of her co-workers said that they don't like Sakurai and they like his 'partner' (I don't really know what they meant by 'partner' ahahah) better. My sister said "no offense" before telling me this. And I was like.. Lol it's okay, no offense taken. I mean, I don't care if they don't like Sho because we all have our preferences and I'm pretty sure he ain't the perfect Keio-boy we see on TV, and I also kinda know he has a bit of a nasty personality but I still love him. Lol. I mean he's had scandals/rumors of him breaking a fan's phone or spitting on a fan and I can't help but think that maybe it was the fan's fault? Yeah, sure, people being an asshole to you isn't an excuse to be an asshole back at them (well, depends on the situation haha) but you get what I mean? If I were Sho and a fan suddenly took a picture of my face with flash (or no flash, actually) I would get mad as hell, too. (maybe not the point of breaking their phone though ahaha)

And speaking of preferences, I really don't get people who are suuuuuuuuuuuuper biased to their oshii/ichiban/bias to the point of them defending them blindly or saying "No way my ichiban would do that!" or "My oshii is perfect, she's pure and she'll never say anything like that!" LOL Guys? Idols are humans too? They make mistakes and do shitty stuff but that's a beautiful part of being human? (okay, okay. there is a line not to be crossed but you guys know what I mean).

Also one time I hosted a cosplay convention, Friend B lost her bag and she was crying to Friend A about it, and they were both in MM cosplay. Friend A told me that there was this other cosplayer who kept taking pictures of them thinking it was fan service. Friend A kept telling the cosplayer to go away and stop because it was a serious situation but the cosplayer just wouldn't stop.

Kek. To clarify, I know it is an idol's job to be please people and make their fans happy that's why I really appreciate J for being so considerate to the fans during their concerts (also JE can you please sell tickets and not just the raffle already??! christ), and maybe we're used to seeing people we idolize all kira-kira and smiley on screen but I wish fans won't forget that their idols are people too, and people have feelings. I'm pretty sure it's tiring for them to keep an image in public and I can only pray that fans stop being a douche about their idols. Meh.

bottomline, I hate people and I wish I can just stay at home 5ever.

so im very new to this fandom like
2 months and 20 days old new???

my friend who's into Arashi kept making me watch these videos of Leader and Nino because she's one hell of an OhMiya shipper (and honestly i think she did get into Arashi because of OhMiya) and I cant say no because every time she starts to like something she like, forces me to watch it haha

at first i was like
dude i really cant get into this whole idol thing like, man, i just cant do it?? our other male friends were so into AKB48 and their sister groups and i felt like being into the whole idol culture just didnt suit me as a person hahah because I never really liked a group? I sorta got into shiNEE or however you wanna caps that but i only ever liked Taemin. I felt like i was more of a solo artist or band person...

I only knew MJ because a friend used to really like HanaDan back in high school, but i only knew him by name and face. I also knew Nino because of Gantz (but i didnt know what his name was yet lol).. but i really didnt know they both were in Arashi. and then i saw a clip of them with Gackt and I was like.. hey isnt that the guy from gantz and Matsumoto Jun???

but then this friend made me watch lots of random videos and at first I only ever know MJ, Nino and Leader because MJ of above reason and Nino and Ohno because they were kinda like her favorites. It took me a while to get to know Shochan and Aibachii's faces because at first i felt like they were the least noticeable...

but then she showed me the Face Down MV.

Oh god, the Face Down MV.

Im watching it as im typing this down.

DEAR GOD KNOWS HOW GOOD LOOKING SHO IS IN ThAT VIDEO AHDJAW

but then i was like

no man i shouldnt give in to this whole idol thing. i gotta resist this shit.

AND THEN SHE SENT ME THIS PICTURE OF SHO


LIKE I SWAER TO ALL THE GODS IF THERE WAS SUCH A THING AS FEELING YOUR HEART GO DOKIDOKI IN REAL LIFE

THIS WAS IT, FAM. THIS WAS REALLY IS IT.

then i started collecting pictures of Sho
like i wont stop if i dont have all the pictures he has in the world okay


and thus began my slow, painful, decline into the abyss that was Arashi puta
and to completely ruin my life with the beauty of Sakurai Sho, here i am now in LJ

yay jouchan omedettou