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Shinee isn't Shinee without you.
Dec. 18th, 2017 01:26 pmOkay so..
I don't know how many of my friends in the fandom know that I'm also a fan of Shinee, and that they're actually the first ever boy group that I liked and are the only boy group ever that I liked until I started getting into Arashi.
I'm not very active in the fandom, and I admit I only listen to a few of their songs, but once I get overwhelmed with too much Arashi, Shinee has always been my "to-run-to" group, kind of like your piece of potato chip after eating too much cake.
I still remember the first time I saw their Lucifer MV, how I even made fun of his outfit, saying that he lacked cloth for his top. My bias is Taemin, but I would say Jonghyun was one of my potential faves as in my opinion, he had the best voice.
Sigh.
His passing hit me hard, and I'm so torn right now especially since it's going to be Aiba's birthday in a few days. Last year's Christmas wasn't good for me and I was actually starting to get over it but then this. I hate this feeling, and I don't want to seem like a bitch who's trying to join feels olympics but I cried about this and am still crying about it until now. There's like a rock stuck in my throat.
It's just so surreal, how this could happen to someone who seemed to be living a glamorous and sparkling life and are perfectly fine and happy. I hate how depression could get to anyone, even someone as succesful as Jonghyun.
I don't want to sound like I'm making this about Arashi but what happened to Jong only increases my fear of depression, how it could affect anyone, and how fragile life is. I'm scared because there's always that possibilty that one of my favorite boys are also feeling the same thing. It's stupid and scary to think this, but I can't help it. I'm so scared of losing people who are important to me, especially to depression. Then there's these regrets piling up. I should've supported them more, I should've watched their concert the last time they came to Manila... but what could that have done? Do I really think that would help?
To anyone reading this rn, if you're feeling down or feeling like shit, please don't hesitate to inbox me. I'm not very good with words and I'm a shit person but I will do my best and I will listen to you.
Like a dear friend said, life is a battle that we constantly need to win everyday... and Jonghyun fought a good a fight.
Thanks for everything, Jonghyun. You're in a much better place now. Shinee will never be the same without you.
I don't know how many of my friends in the fandom know that I'm also a fan of Shinee, and that they're actually the first ever boy group that I liked and are the only boy group ever that I liked until I started getting into Arashi.
I'm not very active in the fandom, and I admit I only listen to a few of their songs, but once I get overwhelmed with too much Arashi, Shinee has always been my "to-run-to" group, kind of like your piece of potato chip after eating too much cake.
I still remember the first time I saw their Lucifer MV, how I even made fun of his outfit, saying that he lacked cloth for his top. My bias is Taemin, but I would say Jonghyun was one of my potential faves as in my opinion, he had the best voice.
Sigh.
His passing hit me hard, and I'm so torn right now especially since it's going to be Aiba's birthday in a few days. Last year's Christmas wasn't good for me and I was actually starting to get over it but then this. I hate this feeling, and I don't want to seem like a bitch who's trying to join feels olympics but I cried about this and am still crying about it until now. There's like a rock stuck in my throat.
It's just so surreal, how this could happen to someone who seemed to be living a glamorous and sparkling life and are perfectly fine and happy. I hate how depression could get to anyone, even someone as succesful as Jonghyun.
I don't want to sound like I'm making this about Arashi but what happened to Jong only increases my fear of depression, how it could affect anyone, and how fragile life is. I'm scared because there's always that possibilty that one of my favorite boys are also feeling the same thing. It's stupid and scary to think this, but I can't help it. I'm so scared of losing people who are important to me, especially to depression. Then there's these regrets piling up. I should've supported them more, I should've watched their concert the last time they came to Manila... but what could that have done? Do I really think that would help?
To anyone reading this rn, if you're feeling down or feeling like shit, please don't hesitate to inbox me. I'm not very good with words and I'm a shit person but I will do my best and I will listen to you.
Like a dear friend said, life is a battle that we constantly need to win everyday... and Jonghyun fought a good a fight.
Thanks for everything, Jonghyun. You're in a much better place now. Shinee will never be the same without you.
